I find myself thinking a lot about the amount of patience I
have for things that I encounter on a daily basis. People at school and
homework? I have all the patience in the world for most of the time. My sister
when I come home from school and have loads of homework to do? None. She
manages to make me crazy and lose all possible patience that I have causing
tension between us for the rest of the night.
With that being said, everything in life always seems to
come back to having patience. Do you want a new shirt from your favorite store
that you saw online, but the local store does not have it in yet? Well, be
patient. The store will eventually get this shirt you are just dying to have.
Are you waiting for someone to ask you to prom? Well, be patient because there
is some guy out there who wants to ask you, but just has not been able to come
up with the perfect way to yet (although he should hurry up because he is
running out of time). Or have you just encountered one unfortunate event after
another and are waiting for your life to turn around? Well, be patient because
God works in funny ways and is just testing your patience with Him! As you can
see, everything comes back to having patience.
As a person, and for those of you that know me, I like to
know things. I am organized, I like to have a plan and follow it, I like to be
on time to places, I like to know all of the possibilities before making a
decision, but even then cannot make a decision on my own to save my life, but
most importantly, I have patience and tolerance for a lot of things. When I
have patience and comfort with my surroundings change is always difficult
because I have to acquire patience for new things around me. Life is not able
to be lived by always being patient and adaptable to your new surroundings
because life does not work that way. It is physically impossible for us to
control every aspect of our life with a plan and to live a perfect life,
contrary to some people’s beliefs.
I am more than aware that I am a very compliant person. I
like being a people pleaser and just going with the flow because I have the
patience to do just about anything. But
instead of being patient and telling myself to do whatever others want, I need
to learn to say the word “no”. When it comes to saying “no,” I over-analyze the
situation I am put into and think about what would happen if I actually said
“no” to a certain situation. But by never saying “no,” I let these thoughts
hold me back from something I want to do. I need to learn to take consequences,
deal with regrets, and accept failure in order to grow as an individual. I am
not going to be able to go through life and do whatever everybody else wants to
do all of the time because it does not work that way. Life throws change at you
every chance it can get, that is just the way it works, and to continue living
one needs to be more comfortable with change, while clinging to who they are as
a person.
We are still in high school though, and this is where we can
learn to let go and grow as individual. We need to become who we are and learn
what qualities we have, such as a patience, and how we are going to use them
later in life. The amount of patience I have gets pointed out by many, and it
does not bother me because it makes me who I am, but I cannot always be as
patient as I am and continue using that quality to be a people pleaser. That is
what gets said to me by those who point out my patience, and they are right. In
our lives right now, we need to find the balance between being patient and
being able to say “no” because everything comes back to having patience.
It is not about whether you have patience or not, but rather
how much patience you have.
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